I wanto tell a story about a girl who is the most important person in my life. Actually, I wanted to write about her for soooo long ago. But i never get the chance to write about her till today.
She is the VVIP in my life. Without her, I can't breathe. I can't even imagine how my life will be if she's not with me now. We meet about three to four years back. At first, when she smile and say hello to me, I think she's wonderful. She's cute. But then, after we get to know, she will be quite passive and seems quiet when I talk to her. Then my perception changed. I think that she's actually kind of arrogant. I am quite uncomfortable with her at first. And to tell u the truth, I was actually being regret that I invited her to be with me at that time. But then, I push away the perception. I may be wrong.
Then, there we are. We started our journey together. And at that time, I really can't accept her. I think that she is very spoil. Everything I had to do for her. Everything I had to support her. To do this, to do that, here n that. All of it was me. N as usual, my mouth is kind of straight to the point and i sound her directly. She seems quiet when I scolded her. I know that she hated me so much that time. I know that she thinks I'm poyo. Coz I always critic her. Yeah, at that time, I'm immature too.
I asked for solutions from my elder sister, and my elder sister asked me to split up with her and move to other house if I can't stand her. The only thing I try to do is that I want her to be mature and independent. I want her to learn how to live. It's not like avoiding her. Coz I kind of comfortable and love to befriend with her. But yet, she still stick to me. Then my mom said. You shouldn't do that. You should treat her nicely and try to consider her as ur younger sister. Then I started to realize sth. Why must I take it as a negative way?? Why must I keep on to sigh this and that about her?? I only know and think that I'm the one who can't stand with her immatureness. But did I think about her feelings towards me? Yes, she surely can't stand with me too. But did she mumble or grumble about me?? Nope. Coz she always keep it to herself.
My ibu has a bestfriend who always visit us during eidulfitri. Ibu said, years ago, she was the one who ibu hated so much and they quarrel so much. They always had big fight. They always misunderstood each other. Yet, she is the one who sticks with ibu whenever ibu needed her.
Then I start to think and analyse it. Why don't I go on with this girl? I think she is immature because she is the youngest girl in her family. And she doesn't has elder sisters to share story about life with her previously. Then, we get closer each day. I started to teach her few things each day. And she learned. Everytime I tell a story, she'll lend her ears. She also always be patient with me, with my bad behaviour. I'm sorry for being cruel to you. I know she just hate me so much. She'll always there when I need advice. N yeah.. she is way too mature now. She's mature in thinking and acting.
She is the one who always there for me. If years back she keeps quite when I scolded her, now she's not. Coz I told her. If I scolded u, it doesn't mean u can't scold me back. If I advice u, it doesn't mean u can't advice me back. Scold me, advice me, show me what I did wrong. I need that. And yes.... we did n here we now.
To u my lil sis, u-know-who. I hope that our bond will get stronger each time . I know how you feel and what u think each time. Even u didn't say a thing, I just know how u feel. It's not that I ignore it. I And u know me, I am ego and fierce with my dearest one. I didn't kiss my younger sis taty. I didn't kiss my bf ezah. N u too. N u know why? because I love you. Even I didn't mention a thing, U just don't have the idea that how much I can live without u although I always said that u can't live without me. But the truth is; I m the one who can't live without u. Coz u.. r the love of my life. mmuahhh... BLUEKKK!! BHAHAHA....
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